... Honestly, I don't care. I've seen more people stabbed, dead, and I've killed more than I can count. If it were someone I care about, then it's a different story.

(it's not even the dark impulses, it's just -- who mikey had always wanted to be. he had to be strong, to show no vulnerability. strength means love, and love is what he hoped to find in the hospital where his mother rested for all his childhood. it's what the manji saw when they needed him.

strength means he doesn't cry when she passes away, nor does he shed a tear for shinichiro in front of others - all done where no one can see, can think of him less than the strong man he promised he would be.

so. it is what it is.)