— i'll say a prayer, as i cast it to the flame

[redsoil]

WHO: set & others
WHERE: around the netherworld
WHEN: check headers for specific dates/times
WHAT: a catch-all for everything during his time in-game
WARNINGS: physical violence, mentions of sexual abuse, hanahaki syndrome, etc.

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[damnpire]

[While Set goes through all that he is, D keeps a gentle hold on him for support. It isn’t a vice clamping Set in place, but the anchor is there.

It’s bizarre to him… to fit so perfectly into the whole of someone else. The way he can feel Set in whatever equivalent he must have of his heart, or his soul, or his spirit. The regal, ancient power of the sands are there in him, filling a space he didn’t know he had at all.

Someone else knowing him, feeling him. It makes his skin prickle with worry and caution. His thought float in, choppy and erratic: it’s too much, probably; it’s too consuming; it’s too sexual and starving. It’ll make Set a monster. He should not have rushed it, thinking Set was hesitating, thinking Set had been unsure.]

Are you going to be alright?

[There isn’t any way he knows of to reverse it. He’d have to immediately run to do research—no, if he breaks the tether, would that break the bond between them? he wonders.

The Shadow in him is eerily quiet for once, and yet, this feels for the moment as if it may have been the worst thing he could have agreed to do.]

[redsoil]

[ Very obviously, Set does not like what they have set in motion. He does not enjoy the idea that they must entwine their souls to survive this land, to maintain their independence and secure the fate of their spirits -- but, he is resolved to it. D's presence within him is so effortless, it is as though it has always been there; it nestles more readily in the spaces made for it than the memory of his own son, and far more comfortably than the flowering, red vines that hold him like briars, like manacles. ( Osiris would love this, he thinks of the soulbonding, before putting the thought away. D must never know of it. ) ]

Look to me.

[ Slowly, he turns himself around. Away from the towering portrait and into D's space, where he can rest his hands into the dark fall of his hair again, this time cradling the other man's somber face between his palms entirely. He jerks him forth, a little, animated and vicious in the motion. ]

If nothing else, you know now that I will survive you.

[ And readily so. Though there is something aching behind his teeth, and his Shadow is so very still -- he knows this is a different difficulty, a new one. One neither of them are prepared for, so they must navigate it both independently and together. ]

I, [ he falters, vision going hazy for a moment, his knees shaking as he fights the wash of D's aura. ] I don't know if I can keep this clinical, right now. Forgive me, if I act -- within my own nature.

[damnpire]

[Both rusty-colored eyes lower onto the face which turns around to him again. He doesn’t put up any resistance to the hands in his hair, urging his head forward.

Set surviving the weight of him is most of the reason why he agreed. If anyone made a good test for what all of this was like, it’s Set. If anyone needed an anchor, it’s Set. And, so far, it hasn’t been too terrible.

Minus the eclectic vampire side of him which he has burdened Set with, thirsty and carnal and proud.]

I’m not worried.

[He looks over Set’s face slowly, studying it. The sensuality in him is now unfettered in Set; he can feel it reverberated back to him, doubled. It isn’t unexpected to him. If he had bitten any human, this is not unlike what would have happened.

He brings both hands up to touch Set’s elbows, bracing the other man from giving out.]

Set.

anna,,, listen

[redsoil]

I was made this way, too.

[ ( In what way? Made? ) The words are similar to what he had told Horus, that night not so long ago. His intentions then had been wicked, cruel as could be, monstrous even. Born of a sensual drive and a hunger for power, for dominance. Now, he still feels the drive. He cannot untangle the nature of D's self from his own, hedonistic and eager and ever-given to carnal endeavors. His mind is a storm, a feral thing of heat and tactility that had been driven into corners, primed to revolt against the one thing he'd always sought out.

He wonders, briefly, if his heart will break the way it had when Anubis had brought their mouths together -- that irrevocable moment where his own son had formally admitted he did not know Set for his father, but thought of him in another way. He feels D's need, not only for something to feed upon, but for -- what is it, that he yearns for in the depths of his heart? Is it absolution? Absolution? Acceptance? Set would like to think that it is acceptance, for that is his deepest desire too. ( And unlike D, he will never receive it. )

His heart does not fail him, as he draws the hunter's jaw forth - meeting him halfway. The kiss is far from chaste, for Set is not a creature of withheld passions. It is rough, as much a battle as he would undertake in the field, and he pauses only to whisper across the corner of D's mouth - somewhere between waveringly coy and painfully natural: ] It's alright. I'm very much like you.

👂

[damnpire]

[As easily as he could see this coming, it still surprises him to have it done. Not because it’s Set. He has no fears or disgusts with men finding him attractive; plenty of men on the Frontier blushed in his presence.

It’s the idea someone even wants to kiss him at all.

And he isn’t sure how something so simple and soft could take him out at the knees when he is so solid in every other way. With the mistletoe, it’s professional. With this…

The fingers on Set’s arms curl slightly. He doesn’t pull away, but doesn’t try to devour Set’s mouth either. The kiss from his end is such a chivalric, polite thing. His lips hesitate with his breath once Set has pulled away. The churn in him is chaotic, turmoil.

A part of him wants to ravish and drink. Another part has the solid, compassionate resolve to know better.

His eyes hide under the lowered, thick lashes; the muddy color of them has become a soft, carnelian sheen, so deep they almost glow. He draws in a quiet breath, like he’ll speak… but he doesn’t yet, hesitating again.

Carefully, in the strangest assuredly but timid way, he kisses Set again, once. The most kind and gentle thing, fleeting.]

we killed the game but im not done tagging this

[redsoil]

[ The flush of sensation that fills him boils high, as he gathers D's face between his hands and slots their mouths together. Set does not kiss politely, yet there is the barest presence of reservation in the way he digs his fingers into D's jaw as though readying for a lunge, to experience being seized; he has been coveted, as a god and as a man and as many other imaginary things, and some part of him has learned to prepare for it.

As D worries he will incite madness with his dark nature, Set fears the same. When they inevitably reach his room in the Shadowlands, what will happen to D, when he lets Set's soul find purchase within him?

Pushing the thought away, he wills his fingers to relax, to not claw at the pale skin of D's face and to instead focus upon the way -- the way the hunter kisses back, so very gentle and shy. ( A laugh bursts from his throat, incredulous with the acknowledgement of it. How truly tender-hearted of D, to be so hesitant and unsure. ) ]

It's okay, [ he whispers (again) across the seam of D's mouth. ]

Don't be afraid to have what you need.

[ ( Something within the shape of Set's soul curls, like a hand seeking the shape of another's. Needy, too. Bitterly shamed by it, but ever-present. ) ]