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[ The silence between the two of them speaks louder than the shadow screaming and berating her for her admission. Her eyes dart away as she mentally prepares herself for the worst (whatever that could be at this point)--only for him to try to reassure her. Hibiki's gaze snaps back to him as he looks up once more, golden eyes laser focused on her.

Her eyes widen as he admits his own sins openly and without hesitation. That he grappled with the same unseen demons; that he almost let them win. All this time, she had seen Kaito as someone who had it together, someone who would never struggle with that voice in his head.

The fact that the two of them are so similar is terrifying--yet reassuring at the same time. For the first time, Hibiki feels like there might be someone who understands her struggles even beyond what their shadows have forced them to grapple with.

D̸o̶ ̶y̶o̸u̴ ̴r̴e̵a̷l̴l̸y̸ ̸w̵a̸n̵t̵ ̴t̷o̶ ̴t̸i̴e̸ ̵y̷o̸u̴r̵s̸e̶l̸f̵ ̶t̶o̶ ̵a̵ ̷k̸i̴l̶l̴e̴r̴?̶ ̷W̸h̶a̴t̸ ̸w̶i̷l̷l̷ ̴y̷o̴u̸ ̷d̷o̵ ̶w̶h̴e̶n̷ ̷h̵e̶ ̶t̴u̷r̴n̴s̴ ̵o̶n̴ ̴y̴o̸u̷?̶ ̴I̶t̶'̵s̴ ̶k̶i̶l̴l̷ ̵o̸r̵ ̶b̴e̷ ̷k̵i̸l̶l̶e̷d̴,̵ ̵a̶n̵d̵ ̴I̴'̸m̵ ̵t̵h̷e̶ ̶o̷n̵l̵y̴ ̶o̸n̴e̷ ̸w̷h̵o̶ ̷c̴a̵n̶ ̶p̶r̷o̷t̷e̷c̷t̵ ̵y̸o̶u̵ ̵w̷h̴e̷n̷ ̷h̷e̵ ̸i̷n̷e̴v̷i̵t̶a̶b̶l̴y̷ ̸b̸e̵t̷r̸a̴y̷s̵ ̷y̸o̶u̸r̷ ̶t̵r̷u̶s̶t̵.̶

He isn't a killer. He doesn't want to be. He considers each life to be precious--even those monsters that most people would kill without a second thought.

D̶o̷ ̶y̸o̸u̸ ̸r̶e̸a̷l̶l̷y̴ ̶b̵e̷l̷i̴e̶v̸e̷ ̶t̴h̷a̵t̷?̸ ̷H̵e̷'̷s̸ ̴f̷u̵l̸l̶ ̶o̷f̷ ̶s̶h̶i̵t̸ ̴a̷n̸d̷ ̴b̶o̵t̷h̷ ̶o̸f̸ ̴u̴s̸ ̶k̴n̴o̶w̶ ̸i̸t̴.̴ T̵h̵e̵ ̸o̵n̸l̷y̷ ̶o̴n̵e̸s̶ ̶y̴o̶u̷ ̶c̷a̴n̵ ̶t̶r̶u̴s̴t̶ ̴a̵r̸e̶ ̴m̵e̸ ̵a̶n̵d̶ ̷y̷o̵u̸.̴

Well, her shadow is half right. Realizing what he's leading to halfway through his heartfelt confession, Hibiki will let him finish at the very least. She had already made her decision, but as he tells her that she's the only one he can trust with this, she feels her heart flutter briefly. It's easily one of the kindest things someone has said to her. ]

Kaito...

[ Placing her hand on top of his, she gives him a small, yet genuine and incandescent smile. ]

Let's do it. You're the only one who I can trust to have my back, so let's fight against this together, as partners. I won't let you fall into that darkness ever again, I promise.

[ This is why you have to be careful about who you idolize. They're only human, just like you.

Well, human with a big fucking asterisk(, just like you).

When he's finished speaking, Kaito immediately drags his gaze away. He expects her Shadow to react, but he also expects her to agree with it. His own Shadow is just popcorning away, figurative eyes a-rollin'.

So when she lays a hand on his and her smile quite literally fills his everything with warmth, he can't help but smile weakly in turn. ]

...What kind of dumb anime moment are we reenacting...

[ He won't cry. He'll hold those tears back. But his eyes are misty and a hiccup accompanies his laugh. ]

Yeah. Not just for our sakes, either. For those who need us.

[ F̴u̷c̵k̶i̸n̵g̶ ̷h̵e̵l̸l̴,̸ ̸w̴h̴o̷ ̴p̶u̸t̴ ̵T̷W̴O̷ ̵p̴r̵o̶t̵a̴g̶o̴n̷i̶s̴t̵s̴ ̴i̵n̴ ̵t̸h̷e̴ ̷s̶a̷m̵e̶ ̴g̷o̸d̶d̵a̵m̴n̴ ̵r̴o̴o̵m̷?̶?̵?̴ ]

[ Her shadow has yet to give up on this fight, but most of the ammunition that it uses is ineffective at best. That's the thing about Hibiki, once she has set her mind to something, she will move heaven and earth to make it a reality—and this is one such instance. Any barbs slung, no matter how dangerous, will inevitably miss their mark.

Shrugging her shoulder vaguely, the blonde laughs silently to herself. ]

No clue. Something super sappy, probably, by that one guy. You know the one.

[ Insert totally censored name here.

She is still, after all, extremely self-aware of certain things, even during an extremely heartfelt moment like this. He'll probably get a kick out of it as well. Her eyes focus on their hands instead of his face, because she's still genuinely worried she might lose her nerve if she doesn't. ]

But we should probably save hashing out the details until after you've cleaned up.

[ Because he probably shouldn't make such heavy declarations while only in his skivvies. Thank god for her S-rank ability to compartmentalize, because hoo boy. Certain things have definitely been etched into her mind that she's going to need to unpack later. ~~Godspeed, Hibiki~~

Standing up, she offers her hand out for him to take. It's probably unnecessary, but he's still been through the ringer. ]

The bath's to the left, at the end of the hall. There should be a change of clothes in one of the lockers, and if not I'll put some in there. They're unlocked, so you should be good.

[ Kaito Nagano is many things, but a coward is (usually) not one of them. He'll make as many heartfelt delcaration as he wants while WEARING whatever he wants!!!

...Anyway.

Her hand is gingerly taken, and it's easy to hide the wince of contact under the guise that his wounds are still tender as he comes up. ]

Thanks. I shouldn't be more than twenty minutes. It'll just a be a sponge bath anyway. [ He won't be able to properly enjoy the bath room until his next visit.

Y̷o̶u̷r̵ ̸n̷e̷x̸t̴ ̵v̵i̷s̴i̸t̸,̵ ̵h̸u̸h̶.̴ ̷T̸s̷k̵.̵ ̷Y̸o̵u̸'̵r̸e̷ ̷t̸o̷o̴ ̶g̷o̸d̸d̸a̶m̷n̶ ̶c̸o̷m̴f̷o̴r̷t̸a̶b̸l̴e̴.̴ ]

...

[ Smiling, Kaito lets go and shuffles himself away. He needs some time to think. ]

[ Hibiki will leave him to it, staying nearby only long enough to hear whether he needs her to grab a change of clothes. It's easy enough for her to go through the list of things she needs to do, and busying herself with menial tasks means she doesn't have to think about... well, a lot of things.

She packs up the med kit, does her best to fold and set aside the tattered clothes (Ritsuki's probably hiding from the smell of blood, poor thing), and when it comes time to discard the bloodied skin-turned-bandages, she heads toward her door to heave them outside.

But she pauses when she sees the packages outside. Her head a bit clearer now, she can make some educated guesses on who left them there. Lobbing the bandages out and away from any of the nearby doors, she takes a brief detour to wash her hands before bringing the packages inside and placing them in the kitchen.

By the time Kaito finishes freshening up, he'll find Hibiki sitting beneath the cherry blossom tree, a small bag of cookies resting in her lap, she quietly nibbles at one. Her other hand on top of Ritsuki's head, she absently scratches the large rabbit between the ears. ]

[ It's almost more of a chore to bathe himself than it is to sit through having his wounds treated. Almost. There are a few occasions where Kaito nearly falls forward into the waters from fatigue, but he manages to stay conscious. Somehow.

The robes Hibiki picked out fit him near-perfectly, though they're a bit more form-fitting than he would like. Thanks, twunkhood. Slipping into a pair of straw sandals, the empath follows a pair of auras out into the courtyard proper, where the blonde has a little friend in tow as she munches on some of his cookies. ]

I see you finally got to my care packages, [ he announces once he's in speaking range. Golds flick down to the Bun. ] ...and picked up a pet? He's a big one.

[ Looking up when she hears him speak, Hibiki smiles a bit sheepishly at him as she moves the bag from her lap to her side. She gives the rabbit a quick pat on the head before rising to her feet. ]

I thought those might've been from you. You didn't have to go through all the trouble.

[ Instead of nosing curiously at the bag of cookies, Ritsuki turns toward the newcomer before staring at him. Where the hell did this twunk come from? ]

And you mean you don't recognize him? You almost ended up naming him, you know.

I don't have to do a lot of things. Doesn't stop me from g̸e̶t̴t̷i̷n̶g̷ ̴i̷n̴ ̶t̷h̷e̵ ̵w̴a̷y̵ regardless.

[ Eyes widen at the revelation, and Kaito's Shadow will be getting off scot-free for that little interruption. ] Wait, I forgot about him! The festival chaos and all, y'know? Ritsuki, huh?

[ No, he's not really bummed out that he lost the naming competition. Kaito slowly lowers himself onto his belly so that he's eye-level with the twunk-wary bnuuy. ]

Hi there. I bet your mom's been feeding you nicely, hasn't she? Even if she probably hasn't eaten that much herself in the last week?

[ He's all smiles, yes, but that was a snark and a half. ]

[ Hibiki blinks a few times, not quite adding up that that weird phrasing was his shadow interjecting. He's not getting in the way? It's a sweet gesture, and not one she feels she fully deserves. She counted four packages out there, which is four more than she would ever expect to receive.

As Kaito lowers himself to Ritsuki's level (she just bandaged those abs, what are you doing), the rabbit scrunches his nose at him before staring him down. It might look like he's just watching, but Ritsuki has his eyes locked on him.

Bro what the fuck are you doing in his yard.

Hibiki's smile spreads thin as Kaito politely calls her out, immediately putting her on the backfoot. She tries her best to laugh it off. ]

Hey, that's... not completely true.

[ Listen, Disney Princess Nagano knows better than to try and loom over a prey animal.

(It's okay his abs are probably on the mend anyway dw about it)

Although the bunbun looks cute as all hell, Kaito can read his aura like a book... He's half tempted to ask Hibiki if she knew she picked up a cross-breed between a rabbit and a mastiff.

Golds eventually flick up towards her, and he pulls himself to a kneeling position. All smiles, he counters. ]

The cookies don't count.

[ Disney Princess Nagano came in here without his permission, so he's lucky he's not getting The Thump. But at least this guy doesn't smell like literal death like whatever just left.

Because sorry Hibiki you're great but Ritsuki is not messing with that. Nope.

Speaking of which... ]

Y... yeah, I know they don't. But I'm fine—

[ The comically loud grumble from her stomach says otherwise. Her gaze shifts as far away as possible, as she tries her best not to look like she's been caught out. ]

I just. Haven't eaten anything else today.

[ Because she can definitely tell the passage of time in her world of perpetual spring. Yep. ]

[ Bring it on, kid. Thump at him. See what happens. He knows a swordsman!

...Or will know a swordsman in the near future.

Aaaaanyway, Kaito just gives Hibiki The Look™ when he hears her stomach betray her. ]

I'm going to make you something to eat after this.

[ "This," of course, referring to the Soulmate process. ]

So? What'd you name him in the end? He looks cute. Possessive, but cute.

[ Oh he will bring The Heat if this clown messes with him amd his human. This one's a queen and Ritsuki will end Kaito if he tries anything funny!

Hibiki continues to smile thinly, not realizing that her pet has been sending death threats for the past minute. ]

You're not gonna let me talk you out of that, are you...

[ She's just going to accept her fate. It's best not to fight it. ]

It's Ritsuki. Ri written like gallant, and tsuki like in moon. Because, you know, rabbit. [ A beat. ] It's not quite what you came up with, but it got me thinking about space and, well. The rest is history.

[ Bending down, she picks the giant bun up, so he's at petting level for Kaito. She doesn't even struggle with him. ]

Yeah, he's my not so little shadow. You're the first person other than me to come in here, so he probably thinks you're gonna hurt me or something.

[ R̸i̷t̸s̵u̴k̵i̶ ̸h̷a̷d̶ ̷b̵e̶t̷t̴e̵r̷ ̷n̵o̷t̶ ̷w̴a̶t̷c̷h̵ ̸w̴h̴e̵n̷ ̴h̵e̶ ̶d̶o̴e̴s̴ ̸t̶h̷e̷ ̶T̴e̵t̸h̶e̷r̷t̴o̵u̵c̶h̵i̴n̸g̶ ̵t̷h̴e̵n̷,̶ ̵b̸e̷c̶a̵u̸s̷e̶ ̵t̷h̵a̶t̵'̵l̵l̸ ̴b̵e̸ ̴h̷i̶l̵a̶r̵i̸o̴u̷s̸.̵

Kaito lifts his hand in preparation for The Pets. There's considerable hesitation, but he eventually runs the back of his fingers up along the boi's head and between his ears. ]

...You put some good thought into his name. I suppose I can be satisfied that you didn't choose Vega. He cares quite a bit for you. Strong protective instincts.

Make sure he gets plenty of exercise, okay? He's a big boy, but his heart beats a mile a minute.

[ Ritsuki levels his bunny boi gaze up at Kaito, expecting an attack from above only to... get pet? And it's kind of nice, actually? That's one of his favorite spots; keep it coming and you can stay, human.

A quietly fond smile on her face, she breaks her gaze to look down at the rabbit in her arms. ]

Doesn't surprise me. He was pretty busted up when his little brothers and sisters left, so I think he thinks I'm all he has left. He's a big lover—aren't you, Ri-kun? Don't worry, this person here is a friend too.

[ He's no Tango, but Ritsuki will make a decent petting substitute... for now. And here we see Disney Princess Nagano in action with his trademark "I know how to get just about any woodland animal to accept me and then some" technique. ]

Reminds me of a certain someone, [ he murmurs fondly. A twinge of sadness rings clear in his voice, creating some dissonance. ]

I left my son behind when I passed. He's a big ol' Siberian cat. Tango. Fat, orange, spoiled, and the cutest thing to have ever lived on my Earth.

I wish I could still pet him. I hope someone's taking care of him. I...

[ He's still petting, careful and gentle, but droplets begin to stain the sleeve of his robes.

Kaito doesn't dare break away, nor does he look up at Hibiki. In a hushed, broken voice, he speaks. ]

I still have him. Sort of.

He's one of my Tethers.

[ Hibiki looks up at him when he speaks, catching the subtle dissonance in his voice. The emotion is practically palpable as Kaito talks about his son, like a true doting father.

It's painful hearing him struggle like that. That cat really is his world, isn't he?

Maybe it's presumptuous to assume she understands, because while she adores Ritsuki, they haven't been together for very long. That doesn't stop her from shifting the rabbit a bit so she can place a hand on Kaito's shoulder, giving it a gentle squeeze. If he's one of his tethers... ]

...I'd love to meet him, if that's okay.

[ He was still committed to becoming soulmates, right? ]

[ O̵h̸,̶ ̸d̴o̴n̸'̶t̷ ̷d̸o̴ ̴t̶h̷i̸s̶ ̸t̸o̴ ̷m̴e̶.̷ ̴D̶o̸n̷'̷t̶ ̶d̶o̶ ̸t̴h̸i̵s̴ ̴t̷o̵ ̵U̸S̶—̶

Without hesitating, Kaito tilts his head to rest his cheek on her splayed hand. A current jolts through his senses, but it's not as strong as he's used to it being. Even if it was, he wouldn't have cared.

A fond gaze gets directed to the bnuuy since he's still struggling to meet Hibiki's eyes, but he nods. ]

You will, one day. Or sooner, if you don't want to show off your Tethers first.

I don't make promises, but consider it a promise.

[ Her heart aches a little as he rests his head against her hand and avoids her gaze. And here Hibiki thought she was the more emotional of the two, although seeing him choked up like this gets to her as well.

If she had any doubt in her mind about partnering with him, it was long gone.

Closing her eyes, she sighs deeply before reluctantly pulling her hand away. Hibiki bends down and places Ritsuki in the grass, leveling a finger at him. ]

We'll be right back, okay?

[ The rabbit scrunches his nose at her, genuinely confused why the petting stopped and why Hibiki isn't holding him.

Hibiki doesn't reach out to guide him this choice, offering him a choice; ]

You can come with me and grab one of them, or you can stay here of you want. It's obviously not the real thing, but the tree here is still pretty comforting to sit under.

[ Oh, honey. Wait until he starts realizing his feelings for you.

Kaito dries his eyes with a quick dab to his sleeve before giving Ritsuki a few final pets. Soon, he's on his feet to join Hibiki. ]

I like napping under trees, but I think I'll follow you in, if you'll have me.

[ No one will survive once they realize it.

Her smile taking an amused hue as he questions whether he can come in. She gets that it's probably a formality, but Kaito please. ]

I brought you here, didn't I? I wouldn't have done that if I didn't want you here. Come on.

[ She refrains from grabbing his hand this time, since he seems to be in a better state of mind, weepiness notwithstanding. Ushering him back inside, he'll notice that the accessible space is much smaller than it looks, with barriers much like in the bath room closing off most of the guest rooms.

Instead of taking him to one of the rooms, she leads him toward a storage room. The shelves are there only for show, existing beyond the boundary. Tucked away in a corner however is a serving cart, piled high with miscellaneous items that exists within the space.

Moving a few things, Hibiki grabs a small notebook, clutching it carefully to her chest. ]

I'll ask you to be careful with this, it's precious to me. It's... it's the reason I came back to Tokyo.

[ Kaito's back to taking stock of his surroundings. He's curious about the restricted areas. Are they simply sealed off by Hibiki's choice, or is it like a boundary, where nothing actually exists behind the doors?

When they enter the storage room, Kaito hangs back by the door and waits. Soon enough, Hibiki walks his way with a notebook held in her arms like it's fragile enough to shatter on contact.

'The reason you came back...' ]

Of course.

[ Kaito gingerly accepts the notebook, steeling himself for what's to come as his hand hovers over the surface. Scarred digits tremble in equal parts anticipation and fear of the unknown.

He presses down, and electricity rockets through his synapses. ]

[ Myriad emotions bombard him from every direction.

Darkness. Trepidation. Anxiety. Excitement. Wonder. Warmth. He feels a mother's smile draw at the corners of his lips. Her daughter's radiant grin. That same daughter's concern.

Weakly, Kaito looks up to see two Hibikis staring directly at him. One is a memory. Well, they're technically both memories, considering the fact that they're dead.

And in the same instant that all those feelings assail him, they're gone. There's a faint prickling sensation in the back of his neck, but it too vanishes.

All that remains is the silence of his mind... and the thrum of Hibiki's emotions. Yet the sensation is nothing like what he knows. In his experience, the auras of living beings blanket over him, their emotions washing into his psyche.

Yet now, he feels what she does—concurrently. Rather than absorb what she feels after the fact, he's experiencing it at the same time.

Golds widen. His hand lifts from the notebook, shaky yet steady. It settles on her cheek, and that's when he knows for sure.

Their psyches are linked. Their souls are linked.

'Holy shit.'

O̴h̴,̸ ̵g̵o̸d̸f̶u̵c̴k̷i̸n̶g̴d̶a̵m̶m̴i̸t̶.̶

Both voices convey clearly, directly into the blonde's mind. ]

[ Outside of needing to touch someone's tether, Hibiki knows nothing about this whole process. Truth be told, she's been avoiding it altogether, which has been relatively easy to do. While the older denizens of the Netherworld have been quick to push the process on them, their words have gone in one ear and out the other. This isn't for her, she concluded. She can and has always gotten by just fine on her own.

Needless to say, she isn't prepared for this process at all.

The moment Kaito touches the notebook, she feels a faint prickling all over; like her leg has fallen asleep and manages to push that sensation through her whole body. The blonde shudders a bit as the hair on the back of her neck briefly stands on end as she feels an undercurrent of emotion flow through her.

Stormy blues search golds only to widen in surprise as he touches her cheek, his voice resonating in her head. Wait, she can hear him?! Holy shit is right!

'K... Kaito? ...You can hear me, right?'

There's a smarmy sigh from her shadow, the side-eye coming out loud and clear;

W̵e̷l̸c̵o̵m̸e̴ ̴t̸o̵ ̷t̶h̵e̵ ̶s̷h̵i̴t̸ ̶s̶h̴o̸w̷,̴ ̸I̵ ̶g̵u̴e̵s̸s̷.̸

Thanks for the vote of confidence, Hibiki's shadow. ]

[ Oh. Oh, that's weird. Kaito's always prided himself in keeping other psychics out of his head. Now Hibiki's just... there. Chilling. And so is a voice that he immediately categorizes as her Shadow.

His palm rubs against her face, and he nods.

'Loud and clear.'

T̵o̶o̶ ̶l̷o̷u̴d̴.̷ ̶T̷o̴o̷ ̵c̵l̸e̶a̸r̴.̴ ̴S̸a̷v̵e̶ ̸m̵e̶ ̵f̴r̵o̶m̵ ̶t̷h̸i̴s̵ ̸s̸l̶i̴c̸e̸ ̶o̶f̴ ̴l̸i̴f̴e̸ ̷b̸u̵l̴l̵s̸h̶i̶t̴.̵

His Shadow's voice sounds completely identical to his own, save for that warbly quality and the second pitch thrown in. Very Persona 4-slash-5-esque. ]

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