—i play the heroine, i play to their sympathies.

[appeale]

WHO: rudbeckia de borgia & etc.
WHERE: various locations
WHEN: check subject lines
WHAT: catch-all & overflow log
WARNINGS: will update as needed. see individual threads for specific warnings and mind ruby's character cws

Comments

[appeale]

[ whether it's personal experience or just sympathy, there's genuine understanding in those words. maybe she shouldn't be particularly surprised; Joonghyuk does seem like the kind of person who's been under a great deal of pressure at some point in his life. nobody who's had an ordinary existence acts like that. ]

That's exactly it. [ if he's not going to look at her, then there's no point putting extra effort into being cute. she can't simply stop smiling, of course. but she doesn't need to worry about it appearing convincing right now. her eyes close, just for the moment. ] What about you, signore? Did you have a good time?

[ actually, she's sure he has a dozen complaints to make just the same as she does. ]

[regression]

[ That's right. She can relax—they both can. Without needing to know about each other's history or past, there is at least something they can both understand and it's the tethers of their worlds being undone. They can exist and that's the aura he gives off, standing there like a weirdo.

Yet Joonghyuk, obviously, does not wish to stay here. He's willing to sacrifice these new freedoms. ]

There are things I have to do at home.

[ So all of this really is just a wrench in his plans. Unnecessary and unwelcome. It's one complaint that somehow encompasses many. ]

[appeale]

Ah—that's right, you're going to return.

[ when he'd said that, she had wondered if it was more about rebellion against confinement in this place than it was any sort of attachment to the place he came from, but perhaps it's both. while she may not know much about Joonghyuk, anyone can tell he's wilful; it follows that he would stubbornly whatever he's set his sights on. is there a particular path he's carved out for himself towards the future? this isn't the novel, and still, she can't help thinking so often of him: how very like a protagonist. ]

There must be things there you care very much for. [ her soft, sweet voice doesn't belie any of the bitterness on her tongue. ] Well, if it's you, I'm sure you'll be able to make it home.

[ that much is honest. ]